human beings are just contridicting and complicated animals. and i'm one of them..

"Happy" by Leona Lewis

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't cha take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't cha love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
All these days I feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me outta here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
Watch this life pass me by, pass me by

So and it's just that I can't see
The kind of stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything

I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

I guess this song is the closest in expressing how i feel and see things right now.
I guess that's just life..people come and go. some stay some leave.

*I miss you badly.though things will never the same between us anymore.but i still care and hope the best for you. *

I've decided....and realise...

life is short, especially life being a single woman..:)

I enjoy my life being single. the freedom to hang out with people and the time to do things that i wanna do.

so yap.. decided..for now..being single is my choice..

only IF.. the right guy that makes me wants to settle down appears..then maybe, its time to change my status..:)

i'm hibernating in my work life and personal life. Can't seem to identify my goals anymore. How? i don't like the feeling of being so lost and lethargic in everything that i'm doing, suppose to do and wanting to do.

i can't even bring out my passion in the things i love to do. dance. i actually skipped it cause i'm tired and lazy and well..sick too.but i use to go even when i'm not feeling well..

and i heard alot about the degree course that i will be taking from a friend. Its just makes me look so least forward to it. all the assignments and research and reading to do. Its giving me headache even before i start.

I don't know. What am i suppose to do? Now, I just want to slack around at home and daydream the whole day. It is a crime for wanting to do that? Yes i think so. :(

I'm finally 21 years old!!!

Still trying to digest this fact that i am OFFICIALLY stepping into adulthood.

Well, anyway.. celebrated my 21st birthday on the 25th of July @ my aunt's condo.

got too many people to thanks.

But the most important people that made all this happen so perfectly are my Parents, Sister, my "Nurse" Maribeth and Cousins.

All my relatives, auntie and uncles.

All Appleland Teachers.

Ernest Kor, Uncle Ujin and their girlfriends. It was a really BIG surprise after telling me that you could't come but yet showed up at the very last min.

Yang su and Marcus- thanks for the red wine. :)

Steph- Have yet to see the photo album but i'm very sure i will love it.

Kunloong, Xuian ming and Terrence- Thanks for the "Key". :)

Mei Chan and Alicia- I miss you girls so much, thanks for coming and thanks for the present too. ( Michelle as well)

Clara, Wilson, Zhanyi and Wai Chee- thanks for coming.

Dear Candice and Cheyenn (of course their daddy and mommy too)- thanks for coming. Really appreciate it. :)

All my parent's friend- though i cant really call out all the names, but thanks for coming.

And All my sister's friend (especially Vincent for helping me or her to decorate the place)- thanks for coming and also the present. :)

I'm not sure if i missed out anyone but i really had a great great time!!

thought half the time i dont really recall what is happening around me, and i didnt spend much time talking to alot of people cause there are really too many people. But i really really appreciate it that all of you took your time out to come celebrate for me.

Daddy, Mummy and ah bee:

My precious family who loved and cared for me more than i do for myself. I haven't been a really good girl recently. Making all of you worried and tired over my health. A thousand words cannot describe how much I love all of you. mummy daddy, because of your persistent i had a wonderful and memorable birthday of my life. Thanks for spending so much money and time for making it a wonderful and perfect experience.

Ah bee- though sometimes u really annoy me alot, but i'm blessed to have a sister like you. Love ya.:)

A perfect birthday, with all the people whom i love and care with me. But a little imperfection which can never be mended due to the absence of someone which....(well, better to be left unspoken).

I'm 21.. time for responsibility and independence.

my Wish:

1) Appleland to always prosper.

2) Everyone i love and care about to be healthy (including myself)

3) shh...its a known secret. but say le won't come true. :P

Hopefully, my bad luck will be gone and all my good luck will come!! :D

finally updating after a long long long long long.........time.

yes, i know, i'm seeing spider webs all over again.

reason why i'm blogging again?? no idea, bored i guess. or maybe, its time to start taking note of what's happening to my life again.

at one point, blogging seems like a chore to me. like writing a school report or work report kind of stress. but not anymore i guess, afterall i haven't been blogging for almost a year le. haha.

The MOST recent update.

started my DPP= Dance Performance Programme. it consists of contemporary, jazz, hiphop, ballet, street jazz, etc... its really fun, and i really like contemporary, although it made me ache all over. but its really cool. Jazz too, alright steph, i agree, Derrick's class is interesting and hilarious. haha.. LEVIS , HUGHUG!!! ballet is kinda boring, i guess cause i have learnt it before already.
hiphop......*speechless* no comment on that. now looking forward to street jazz. :)

Just got discharged from the hospital yesterday. admitted on friday night, was sent to the hospital by the ambulance. cause: gastric pain and vomitting till fainted at home. and after doing all the blood test, urine test, and xray and dunno what else. doctor says its due to constipation. well well, knew that i have that kind of problems all along, but didnt know it will become so serious.

Spend the 1st night in the A&E ward, really horrible, the pain. and because there's only 1 doc and 1 nurse (i was sent in around midnight), i have to wait for 45 mins just to get the blanket which i vomitted on to be changed. was really freezing inside. SGH should really do something about the room temperature there man. even when i was transfered up to the patient's ward, the room is still freaking COLD!! was freezing through the night. especially my hand that was on drip. painful, swollen and icy. went in with just gastric and vomitting, came back with flu and cough. but the nurses at the patient's ward are REALLY REALLY NICE!! nowadays hospital's service are really like in a hotel. you can order your breakfast, lunch and dinner from the menu and the food are delicious. there's TV with HBO and other channels (not the normal Channel 8 and stuff) nurses are very helpful, gentle and friendly, facilities are clean. what else can i grumble about other than temperature too cold, really nothing to do there and they on the lights too early in the morning (they on at 6am). *fainted*

but i'm alright already!! have to really take note of my health from now on le..
thanks Yang su and Kor for visiting me. :) and all who showed their concern. sorry for scaring all of you. haha..

Next thing, looking forward to my 21st birthday..

till then...this blog won't be updated.. :)

updating only once a month..mm..i'm really getting very lazy. well, some happy things to share.
finally finished my most important project, finished one of the most important event of the year, finally realised that my life is under my control and i am the only one who can make a difference to it. yap. time to start off fresh. i'm really really glad that i have these few friends in my life. steph, yang su, my dearest twin and clara..without friends like you, i really can't imagine what kind of life i'll be having. :) love you guys lots. mm.. yup..everybody, please await the newly changed kelly. though not drastic change.but yup.CHANGE!! haha..

...PROFILEEE

KELLY
twenty-one
27/07/1988
insensitive